Inside my head, the thoughts come thick and fast somedays, they writhe and swirl amidst the turmoil of emotion. Today is such a day.

A shit day at work with a supervisor who loves to micromanage. Why am I being given a hard time over the couple of extra minutes I spend buying lunch if I am on the road, especially by people who probably waste half an hour every single fucking day standing outside the office smoking. Some days I really don't need this shit.

In any case it all makes me wish I was still away travelling, like I have been the last few weeks. I really do have this part of me that wishes it was still on the road, away from all the mundane bullshit. I really do feel more authentic, getting out there and meeting life head on, instead of being stuck in this hellhole waiting for the world to come to me. I was happier when i was sitting on top of a lonely mountain, facing the wind and the cold, but really feeling alive, calling upon the strength of my ancestors to help me face and conquer my fears.

i am getting there i suppose....


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